Sophomore Year at FHHS

I've made it through another year at Heights; thank God.

Right now it may seem like I've had it and that's exactly how I feel right now, but I can't say that this year was all bad because in reality, it really wasn't. I've shared a lot of good memories with my friends and the one boy who've I fell head-over-heels in love with, Chris.

This year had many bumps in the road, as everyother year did, but I'm glad I went through them. I struggled at some points in the school year with my work, trying to balance out the time that I had left in the day- and it wasn't real easy. I'm thankful though. I take school very seriously and I want to put in the best effort that I can. Even when hard times come, I'm never gonna give up on my grades in school or my education period. I plan to use my knowledge to gain success in my life. I want to live a life full of happiness and where to start working towards that is school.

I'm excited to end the school year, but then again, I'm saddened by it. Things right now are harder than ever with Chris and I both, and I don't know if I should let go and move on, or stick around and show him why I'm still here. One thing I haven't told him though was how proud I am of him and what he has achieved. He's graduating this year and continuing on to another chapter in life; college. Though it's going to be hard to accept the fact that he's really leaving and is beginning to grow more, I'm happy for him. He's worked hard for where he is at. I'm thankful for spending my whole entire Sophomore year with him and I wouldn't change it if I could. I just want the best for him and I'm going to continue to help achieve the best for him, but I'm not going to just worry about him when I need to worry about getting myself out of high school as well. One thing I wish though, is for Christopher to help me through and never give up on me. Were not together anymore and I feel like it just put more weight on my shoulders. I hate it. But I want what is best for us both and hopefully after our many talks, he will understand. I'm not dissing any of the other girls he has been with, but I was there from the start of our relationship til the end of it and I will always be around. I love him and that's not going to change.

To end my year, I'm going to try and be happy, get the rest of my assignments in and ready and pass my exams. That's all I can do right now before I worry about other things. I have the summer to live and breath and to maybe, work things out with Christopher. But until then, I need to worry about school.