Spring Break: Pros & Cons

Spring break is next week and it seems that this week is going by sooo slow! I wish it would just be over so I can relax, chill and gather myself together since this week was really stressing.

My plans for Spring Break for now are sleeping and softball. Until something else comes up, and I'm not busy with softball, then that's pretty much all I'm going to be doing on break. I'm considering spending more time with my family as well since I feel like I'm just forgetting all about them; mostly my sister and my niece. To think about it, I might just spend a couple of days with them over the break.

Right now the weekend needs to arrive very soon! Friday we got a game against Worthington Kilbourne and I'm definitely estatic for our double-header Saturday against Hamilton Township! Hopefully if we get our fundamentals right and throw accurate throws from home to second, second to third, and third to first- instead of overthrowing the ball and just throwing the game away. We need to keep our heads up and if we make a mistake don't let it get to you; wipe it off and learn from it. You'll do better the next time. We have several games over the break, we can't just give up. But I'm pretty confident that we will play hard and take home a couple wins.

Oh, I forgot... Another big thing I need to do before tomorrow is get all my assignments turned in. I'm almost done with my poetry book for Mr. Mann, but I know I'm not going to be able to get it done today, though it's due. So maybe he'll cut me a break and let me turn it in atleast friday... If I finish. I really feel like a slugg in his class, but I'm trying to manage.

Now do you see what I mean when this week is making me stressed out? As soon as I get my school stuff done, some stress will come off my shoulders. The other stress is relationships. But I'm tired of spilling my guts out over it, I think I should just walk away this time without looking back and go do my own thing. Maybe being single and uninvolved will get my schooling back on track. I need to understand that I'm still young and the only thing that is important right now is my education.

That's pretty much all I have to write about. I think I'm start doing my assignments to hopefully get them out of the way.

The Lost Boys of Sudan

This past Friday in English, Mr. Mann showed us some film of The Lost Boys of Sudan, that I believed was a great documentary.  Interesting as it sounds, the documentary is about two Sudanese refugee on a journey from Africa to America.

The boys' names were Peter Dut and Santino Chuor, and in my own opinon, I believe that their journey was the most terrifying journey that I have ever heard about in my entire life.  On the road, Peter and Santino had faced many dangers.  The amazing part about their story is knowing that they survived it all- lion attacks, militia gunfire, alligator attacks, etc. The boys had used their own strategies to get through; for example, once they had to cross a dangerous river where alligators live and hunt, they had to swim underwater. The purpose for that, as Peter and Santino told it, was it would make the alligator think you were coming to harm them instead of swimming on top of the water where they can catch you at the weakest point. Along the same lines, when they came across lions, they couldn't look any lion in the eyes unless the lion would attack you.

Once the boys had reached the refugee camp in Kenya, surprisingly, they were chosen to be sent to America. Living in America, the boys had continued their education and one of the boys later went back to Sudan to help other orphans.  Each of them wanted to contribute help to their own Sudanese people.  I found that inspirational.  Their story was inspirational.

I couldn't imagine myself being put into Peter and Santino's situation. Traveling for so long, staying out of danger and hiding the whole way from Sudan to Kenya. To be honest, I doubt that I would of even made it out of Africa, so it's incredible to hear that two young boys took on the challenge and made their way to freedom.  It would be an honor to meet either of the two boys and here the whole story from their point of view.

Just an Update.

Forgive & forget.  That's the biggest characteristic that I have; especially with friendships and relationships.  As you remember, last week- I think Thursday to be exact, I told you about the problems Christopher and I had been going through.  Well, I can now say that everything is getting better day-by-day because I forgave and I forgot.  Not everything is perfect again, just yet.  We still have a long way to go before we can actually say our relationship is just right.  But I'm glad I had the heart to forgive him & try to start things over; it was a bit of a bigger step since I would normally decide to walk away from it all, without solving anything.  I just couldn't leave on a bad note.

On to a different topic; this week is OGT week.  It may sound wierd, but I like taking tests.  It's only when I don't understand what I'm testing over, I get aggrivated. 

Monday we took the Reading OGT and let me tell you- I DISLIKE READING WITH A PASSION!  I thought the stories in the test were boring as ever and I didn't understand a couple stories.  The one story that really mad me furious was the dumb story about the Uganda trip or whatever.  I'm sorry, but I don't see myself going to Africa anytime soon or ever, let alone the Republic of Uganda.  It made me think about it way too much, which made it more difficult than it should've been.  Thank goodness that test is done and over with.  Now, I just hope I passed so I don't have to see it ever ever ever again! 

Today was the Mathematics portion of the OGT's.  Ha, it was a piece of cake!  I thought all the questions were so simple; basic math.  I admit that I didn't do or put much thought into two of the questions.  They were both either a short-answer or an extended response, surprise much?  I just felt very lazy to draw the graph on one and the other, I honestly didn't understand.  It's cool, I'm pretty condident that I will definitely pass that one. 

Tomorrow is the writing OGT, Thursday is science and Friday is social studies.  The writing won't be hard, but I need to brushin' up on some science and some history.  When the weekend arrives, I will be so glad! 

Last but not least, softball has been going good lately.  Though I don't care for our lady coach and her attitude towards me and some others, I can't wait to start out season.  But for now, I think I'm gonna just kill her with kindness! :)

I wonder if she would like me then? lol.

Fears :/

I haven't been myself lately.  I've been so caught up with school, softball conditioning/try-outs, and my relationship that I've been slipping. :/

Since I started high school, I've always been a person to put school and all my school work first.  But I feel like I'm going through so much because the boy I'm involved with, unfortunately, did come with strings attached.  Let's just say his ex is really getting under my skin with all the drama she is causing.  I feel like Chris and I are losing our relationship.  Hopefully the drama will end and she will stop interfering- I just want it to be me and Chris, not me, Chris and somebody else.  The love I have for him is much more than I expected and I don't just want to give up... but if all of this is going to continue, I'm afraid that I going to have to in order to get myself back on the right track.  I hate this part of relationships! D;

Am I the only one who is going through this?

This morning, I had to rush to get my math homework that was assigned last night done.  I'm disappointed in myself for choosing to wait until the last minute to do so.  Instead, I took the available time I had last night to talk with Chris about everything.  Maybe our conclusion will work- but I hope his aunt will do what we want to do :/

These past couple days have been taking a toll on me.  I have never been so stressed out in my entire life.  Goodness, why do I put myself in these situations?  All I want is to get through all the hard and rough times in my life and live happy.  I don't wanna be worried, stressed, or paranoid in anyway.  I guess it's just life then, huh?

"Nobody said it was going to be easy.  They just promised it would all be worth it."  Maybe that quote is true.