Fears :/

I haven't been myself lately.  I've been so caught up with school, softball conditioning/try-outs, and my relationship that I've been slipping. :/

Since I started high school, I've always been a person to put school and all my school work first.  But I feel like I'm going through so much because the boy I'm involved with, unfortunately, did come with strings attached.  Let's just say his ex is really getting under my skin with all the drama she is causing.  I feel like Chris and I are losing our relationship.  Hopefully the drama will end and she will stop interfering- I just want it to be me and Chris, not me, Chris and somebody else.  The love I have for him is much more than I expected and I don't just want to give up... but if all of this is going to continue, I'm afraid that I going to have to in order to get myself back on the right track.  I hate this part of relationships! D;

Am I the only one who is going through this?

This morning, I had to rush to get my math homework that was assigned last night done.  I'm disappointed in myself for choosing to wait until the last minute to do so.  Instead, I took the available time I had last night to talk with Chris about everything.  Maybe our conclusion will work- but I hope his aunt will do what we want to do :/

These past couple days have been taking a toll on me.  I have never been so stressed out in my entire life.  Goodness, why do I put myself in these situations?  All I want is to get through all the hard and rough times in my life and live happy.  I don't wanna be worried, stressed, or paranoid in anyway.  I guess it's just life then, huh?

"Nobody said it was going to be easy.  They just promised it would all be worth it."  Maybe that quote is true.